Day 33, Corona Lockdown

     It's hard to believe we're on day 33 of a countrywide lockdown. Shit, it's a worldwide lockdown! I wake up each morning and the first 30 seconds before I fully come awake, all is well. I sit up on the side of my bed, take a deep breath, and then realize with a sigh, another day in quarantine. Another day with hours to fill and time on my hands. I have been made to slow down, whether I like it or not.

COVID-19, Day 25

     It's day 25 of the COVID-19 lockdown and it still doesn't look any better out there. There are days when I feel like I'm on the set of an episode of The Walking Dead. It's all so surreal. Even though I knew this was coming for a long time, I'm still wondering how this could have happened. Why didn't the leaders of our country put us into lockdown straight away and tighten our borders? They knew what was happening in China and yet they chose to do nothing. I don't understand how they made the decision to play with millions of lives because of big business. Now everything is going to come crashing down on their heads. This virus doesn't care if you are rich or poor. It doesn't care about the color of your skin. It doesn't care about the number of people dying. Our government is trying to help as best they can now, but is it too little, too late? If they had done what was right from day one, we might have been able to avoid the worst of this catastrophe.

What Makes Your Soul Happy?

      I'm sitting here at my kitchen table watching it snow again. This spot is my favorite place to write. The view isn't what I would call spectacular but it can be interesting at times. Sitting here I realize over the past year I've gained something I didn't have before. My injury forced me to slow down and because of it, I have found contentment I didn't have previously. I feel at peace and my soul is happy.

A Whole Lifetime Away

     Today is my birthday and I turned 66. How do I feel you ask? No different than I did when I turned 26 or 36. Yes, my body moves a bit slower and I have a few aches and pains but no different. Back when I was 26, 66 seemed a lifetime away and unimaginable. But, here I am, a whole lifetime away.

Transitioning

         Last year at this time I had a nasty fall in January and dislocated my shoulder. I had to have surgery to repair it. While it was healing my doctor discovered I had done damage to an already damaged lower back. It's taken a whole year to get my life back. But now, I'm not quite sure how much of it I actually want back. While sitting around for months on end healing, I had so much time to reflect on my life and the direction it was going in. Right now, at this very moment, I am transitioning but I don't know what direction it's taking me in.